What's happened to my life what have I done I knew better than everybody in my family that he was my kind of guy funny charming smart as could be he was local and white, well it is the 21st century I thought these old people my family they belong to another era, I knew what was best for me, but he did this, he made me question everything that I believe.
After that night though I can't even think about it without feeling physically sick what had got into him, how could anyone behave like that I just cant understand what is going on.
He has become a complete bastard and there is no way that I am going to let him come near me and my children. The very thought of bringing up my two children up on my own, I have become a statistic a single parent god I have to stop being such a pitiful creature and so pathetic about this. I am an intelligent smart woman I have an education I have a career ahead of me. He will be back of course I can't trust him not to have another go at me. That helpful lady, I think she was from victim support; she said that I should speak to a solicitor straight away and get a court order so that he doesn't come near us.
He will have rights to the children she said, I don't understand after what he has done. The children are saying that they don't want anything to do with him they don't want to see him, but at heart I know they are only saying that to keep me happy. He was very fond of them when they where younger, I still remember the wait until daddy gets home I am going to tell him that I done a painting at school.
What's this social worker coming around to see us though, it specifically says in the letter that he wants to speak to the children, I mean surely they don't think that I am responsible for all this, he is a male social worker, what is he going to understand about what I have been through, I am really not happy about this at all, but I guess I do not have a choice do I. How's it going to go with the house though I mean what if we are just put out on the street, my god the thought of that is just? I will need to find out what rights I have to the house, the biggest problem is going to be the money I don't have any savings and the bills and the mortgage is just going to pile up. I am sure he is obliged to supply accommodation and pay, will he though, I can't believe this is happening to me I am just a little past thirty, what's going to happen.